Dear Diary,

Another Crazy idea and another self indulgent post.

As well as me looking at houses we can't afford, I periodically look at what jobs are on offer. (Incidentally, there's only one of my 'perfect house' left for sale.  I worked out that if DH earned double his salary, we'd only get a mortgage for half the house.  And, if we miraculously could get a mortgage for that house, we'd need to pay over £3k per month! So it's not going to happen.) DH mentioned that there are vacancies at his company (he only started in Feb, and though he's not keen, it does seem they type of company I'd enjoy), so I had a look.  They have the job I would want, if I were to ever be employed again AND they say the main qualification (which I don't have) is desireable, rather than essential!  In fact, not being able to move into this role, was one of the reasons why I left my previous job to become SAHM in the first place.

Now, I like being a SAHM and part-time tutor.  I want to HE (though if I *had* to go back to work, I don't have a problem with school in general).  But, the reality is that if we want to ever move house (not even to one of my ridiculous houses) I will have to be working a significant amount or full time, to ever come close to saving enough money.

So, given that they have the job I'd want, I don't need the main qualification (I do have some experience, just not the qualification that most employers look for), and they ask for 'salary expectations' (so I could name my price), I'm very tempted to apply.  If I were to draw a tree diagram there are 3 routes, with 2 outcomes:
1. I don't apply, and things stay as they are.
2. I do apply, but don't get the job (at whatever stage), and things stay as they are.
3. I do apply, and they offer me the job.

As I said, I do enjoy my life atm, but having been brought up with 'get a good education and you can have whatever you want' and 'fulfil your potential', means I'm always looking for more.   These thoughts are specifically for working at DH's company, rather than generally looking for a job - which I don't want.

Pros of working:
*we could gain savings, to afford the lifestyle we want
*I could travel with DH so no need for extra transportation costs
*Travelling with DH would mean his day seemed shorter (which would help his enjoyment of the job)
*There would be less pressure on DH to be the main breadwinner (which unusually for a bloke, he doesn't like)
*I could start my career up again, as we're not planning any more children now.
*I *really* want to move house.

Cons of working:
*I like the freedom I currently have to do what I want (despite lack of money and lack of car as constraints)
*DDs 1&2 would immediately have to go into nursery full time (though we'd look for one in the town where DH's company is, rather than the town where we live)
*I would not be able to HE.  I not only like the philosphy of learning, but worry DD1 may be too clever for school (I don't mean that to sound big-headed).
*DD1 would have to stop gymnastics, as I wouldn't be able to take her.  She only started in April, and absolutely loves it.

Hmmm, I'll probably think of more pros/cons during the day, but the main incentive is money, but I'm nore sure if I'm willing to 'sell my soul'. ;-)

I am tempted to apply, with a high salary requirement, but say it's open to negotiation.  I've googled, and apparently the average salary for this job is £45k, but ranging from £35-60k.  I'm thinking, if I ask for £43k, being aware they are likely to offer a lower amount.  I'd need to work out what the lowest amount I'd accept is.  For example, when I stopped working before, I was on £25k (4days) and could only just afford nursery costs for 1 child, so I'd be looking for significantly more than that, to tempt me back to work. 

And yes, I realise that all this may be getting ahead of myself, because if I do apply, they'll probably reject me without interview.  And yet, if I don't apply, I'll always be wondering (and I hate that - I'd rather know and be rejected, itms).

Any thoughts at all?

Yours, LBP