Thursday 28 April 2011

How the Hell can I call myself a Christian?

I don't go to church, and I barely even pray anymore.  I have no idea if anybody (who doesn't know me) would recognise me as a Christian, even though I wear a Crucifix - because it is often just a fashion statement these days.  My biggest fear is that when I do die, I will be one of the people who Jesus was talking about in Matthew 7:21-23.

21 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.
22 Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’
23 Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’

But I do call myself a Christian.  Of course it all comes down to belief (specifically faith verses works, which is a huge debate in itself), but I do believe that Jesus is Lord.  Whether I am in a close relationship with God or not, doesn't alter the fact that God exists and Jesus is His Son who died for me. 

I've been on various Christian messageboards and forums (incidentally, I do think you can 'do' church online, because 'church' is the collection of believers and not some cold, run down building that you feel obliged to frequent on a Sunday), and have debated and been involved in various apologetics.  I do still find apologetics interesting, but don't have much time to spend on it these days.  What confuses me the most (and I truly do not understand) is people who claim that they were bible-believing Christians.  Perhaps they even spoke in tongues or displayed other 'signs of the Spirit'.  However, they came to their senses and now believe that there is no God, they were brainwashed, and no longer accept any of it.  If I only use my intellect (I've a Masters from Oxford - often I'm the more 'intelligient' one anyway) I would see as they do, and realise the 'truth'.  I honestly do not know how this can happen, if people did genuinely have a relationship with God.  As I said before, even if I say a million times that God doesn't exist, that doesn't stop Him from existing, nor me from knowing that He is there!

So, that is why I call myself a Christian.  I may not be a very good one, but I call myself one, nonetheless.

Laughing at this blog.

I've just looked at the stats for this blog.  As it's fairly anonymous (I've only told 2 RL people about it), I haven't linked to it from FB or any of the forums I'm on.  It is only me and my thoughts about the world, and a couple of rants, with my attempt at dieting thrown in.  I'm sure for most people it is as dull as ditchwater.  It is clearly not popular.  I don't have any 'followers' and I don't think there has been a single comment left about one of my posts. (That being said, if you did want to comment, or follow this blog, please do.)

So why am I laughing?  Because there has been a whopping 39 direct views of one of my posts.  Is it a funny anecdote?  Maybe a story about the birth of my children, or my thoughts on something even vaguely interesting?  Nope.  It is just a record, for myself, of the books that DD1 has taken out of the library this week.  Fascinating! (with much more than a hint of sarcasm).

The next highest viewed post is about the Swiss holiday, which I still laugh about even now, with a lowly 14 views.  So yes, 39 (at the latest count) truly is 'whopping'.

Tuesday 26 April 2011

Weekly Weigh-in

Current weight: 68.5kg
Goal weight: 10st
Weight lost this week: -0.5kg
Total weight loss:9.5kg

I have put on half a kilo this week, which isn't too bad, as it could be normal fluctuation. smiley - smiley

Monday 25 April 2011

Weight Loss

To add to last week's post, I've actually another 5kg (~11lbs) to lose  until I hit my target of 10stone so it's a fair chunk, and I'm losing it slowly, but hopefully steadily and healthily. What is good, though, is when I think back to when I started (pre-DD2), I was 87kg, so I've lost nearly 20kgs! (~3stone) Because I've been losing weight over a fair while, and had a pg in between, I had no idea it was that much. I'm really chuffed with myself. smiley - biggrin

Because of the hot weather, I went to wear a skirt yesterday, but it on (it's a lovely loose white skirt) and you actually could have fitted 2 of me in there!  So I'm reduced to wearing just a handful of summer clothes.  I really must go shopping to reward myself!

I'm dreading tomorrow's weigh-in, though.  We've had a bit of a weekend of it, with the in-laws here, and even though they have left, we've just had a chinese takeaway, so I wouldn't be surprised if I have put loads of weight back on.

Library Books

Again, I'm just using the library's online list, so I don't have authors etc, though we have had a fair few before.
  • Little Red Riding Hood
  • Fillet and the mob
  • Little red hen
  • Where's Wally? (Admittedly I got this for me, but DD1 has been enjoying it too.)
  • Our Jungle
  • Mr Frost
  • Ships
  • Trucks
  • Baby's Very First Touchy-Feely getting dressed book (for DD2)

Thursday 21 April 2011

Seeds have sprouted!

Hurray! My carrots and onions that I planted a couple of weeks ago have started shooting. I did have to do a google search to check though, as I wasn't sure if it was grass/weeds :oops: but this is my first attempt at gardening so I'm pleased. Also, one of my tomato seeds has appeared. The strawberry plant is doing well, but all I've had to do with that so far is water it. DD1 is interested too, and helps me do the watering everyday (I bought a pink watering can for her) and every day she picks flowers from the garden for me (daisies and dandelions :) ).

Tuesday 19 April 2011

Weekly Weigh-in

Current weight: 68kg
Goal weight: 10st
Weight lost this week: 2kg
Total weight loss:10kg

Wahoo! I'm my new lowest weight!smiley - biggrin

And i've just found out my BMI is 25.6!  Oh, so close to being healthy!!!

Monday 18 April 2011

Quote about the Purpose of Noses

"A nose keeps bogeys warm and cosy."
by DD1 (3.5yo), after some pondering. LoL

Sunday 17 April 2011

Library Books

Just a quick update, as I've been really busy recently:  (I don't have all the authors/illustrators because I'm just using the online library system, which appears to only list titles.)
  • Terrormazia*
  • Pants, by Sharratt and 
  • You Choose, by Sharratt and Goodhart
  • Bertie and the Big Balloon
  • The Island of Horror*
  • Ten Little Babies,
  • Atchoo! by Kelly and McQuillan
  • Weather, by Clarke
  • Noisy Engines!
*Admittedly, theswe two puzzle books, were for me, rather than DD1!

Saturday 9 April 2011

Dear Diary,

Lots have been going on that I really need to update with you.  On Mother's Day, we had the worst takeaway [customer service] in the world, on Monday we went to the library as usual, but I haven't noted which books we got out, I put on weight, DD1 made an HE friend, the weather has been gorgeous and I've had a busy Saturday in the garden today!

So, on Mother's Day, for a change we thought we'd try the only Italian takeaway (excluding the likes of Pizza Hut etc) in our town.  We looked at the menu, and though it seemed pricey (more than double what we would normally pay for a takeaway, DH and I decided it would be a nice change.  We ordered online, and only after we had paid, did it say "allow 90mins for delivery"!  We were hoping to feed DD1 (and 2) some of ours for dinner, but that wait seemed ridiculous, so she had beans on toast - which she probably enjoyed more anyway.  Soon, DD1 was in bed, and DD2 was asleep downstairs, but still no food.  After nearly 2 hours from whe we ordered we phoned up to ask where our food was, to be told that ours was next in line (so they hadn't even started it!) and to apologise they'd throw in a bottle of wine.  Did we want white or red?  Red.  DH nor I like white wine, so even though we decided it was too late to open the bottle that night, it would keep.  We had to wait another 45minutes (!!!) before the food arrived.  DH went to the door, took the food, but no bottle of wine.  The delivery driver said he would return with it, which to be fair, he did very promptly, but it was white.  Typical - and just sums up the customer service that they couldn't even get the colour of wine right.  By this point, it was nearly 3 hours after we first ordered, and we were well into the food, so didn't bother saying anything.  At least we now have a bottle of white for if we have visitors.  The food itself was actually lovely, though massive.  If we were ever to order from there again (which we're not going to), we'd order 1 starter and 1 main between us.  At least that way, it would be the right amount of food for a decent price.  I ordered White Bait starter (which was enough for about 4 people) and Duck breast for main.  I was given the option of chips or vegetables, I opted for veg, but ordered a side order of chips anyway.  When it arrived, the duck breast was about 6inches long, and 2 inches thick, though very tasty.  The side order of chips was humungous, and the vegetables had roasted potatoes included so I didn't need the chips anyway.  DH ordered prawns for starter and seafood spaghetti for main; the latter was definitely enough for two.  As I say, the food was very nice, but we're not going to bother ordering from there again.  I would Name and Shame, but then that takes away one part of my anonymity, if you know where I'm located.

Current weight: 71kg
Goal weight: 10st
Weight lost this week: -2kg (ie put on 2kg)
Total weight loss: 7kg

I put on 2kg this week.  Probably because of the takeaways, and visit to my grandparents, but I'm hoping it is just a normal fluctuation and I haven't put myself back that much.   Today I saw somebody who hadn't seen me in a few weeks, and with the warmer weather, I'm wearing thinner/lighter/tighter clothes.  Anyway, she commented about how much weight I've lost, around my waist and around my face, so I hope that means I haven't done too much damage to my goals.

On Monday we went to the library as usual.  I got out some books for DD1 and one for me.  (I'll update this post, when I've got them to hand.)  Then, on Tuesday, we went to a different library for Storytime and also to meet up with a fellow HEer, and her children.   She has two girls, the elder one is 5 and the younger is 1.  The elder daughter, apparently, went to preschool and didn't hate it, but didn't enjoy it that much either.  So, off she went to school like most other children, but changed overnight and hated it.  So, she was taken out of school and is now being HEed.  Anyway, DD1 and her got on like a house on fire, so I'm hoping they will become good friends, as we start to develop more friendships in the HE world. :-D

And today I have done much in the garden.  The weather is still lovely, so I wanted to make the most of it.  I cut the grass, and filled up one compost bin, and started filling the second one.  I repotted my house plant (a rubber plant, that I've had since university), I sowed the tomato seeds in the grow bags, and I sowed rows of carrots and onions in the ground.  I've never attempted to grow anything from seed before, but hopefully that if nothing has grown in a month's time, I will still be able to buy some baby-plants from the gardening shop to replace the dead-seeds and nobody will be any the wiser. Ssssssh!

So that's what I've been up to lately.  I am planning on writing a post entitled "How the Hell can I call myself a Christian?" but it's another thing that I haven't got around to.  Tomorrow the weather is still meant to be high so we're planning to go to the beach for the day with the children.  Studland beach in Dorset is a sandy, accessible naturist beach.  But it is a fair few hours drive away, so it does depend on how much sleep we get tonight and how early we wake tomorrow.  Otherwise, we'll still be at home, and hopefully will be as productive as we have been today.

Speak again soon,
LBP

Sunday 3 April 2011

Mother's Day!

Today is Mother's Day, in the UK.  It is usually the last Sunday in March; I don't know why it has changed to April this year, unless it is somehow also linked to Easter?  Mr. Internet probably knows somewhere. 

Today I had a lay-in, and DH took DD1 and DD2 downstairs nice and early, so I could sleep.  Then, just before 10am, DD1 ran in shouting "Happy Mother's Day" and DH brought me a large cooked breakfast in bed, and a glass of orange juice and I had a card from my two DDs with a lovely picture of the moon drawn by DD1.  (Why there's a picture of the moon in my card, I don't know, but shhh, don't tell her that.)

And because I want to grow my own, I used today as an excuse for DH to buy me lots of gardening stuff.  So off we went and bought a watering can, compost, plant feed, name tags, tomato grow bags, strawberry plant in a hanging basket, a bucket and a water power thingy for the patio (which is really a new toy for DH and cost more than all my stuff put together).  Typically, as we were loading the car up it started to rain. 

Since coming back home the rain has come and gone. I have managed to cut back the holly bush (I wanted to remove it totally, but DH thinks it looks good.  It's just a bit too prickally for my liking), hang up the strawberry basket, and tidy the garden by putting the leafy things from next-door's palm-type tree into the compost.  Not much, as I was hoping to sow some seeds too today, and cut the grass, but the weather has changed.

As it is Mum's day today, yesterday we went to visit my grandparents.  My dad came down to visit them, with his wife and my sister, and we went across for just the day as we don't live too far away.  Overall we had a nice time.  Ate far too much (I may have mentioned this before, but my grandmother is a feeder), and brought loads home too, which we have been eating today.  My family are not known for their tact, though, and the first thing that my grandad, my dad and my grandmother (all separately) said to me was how blothcy, red and spotty my face looks.  Thanks(!)  Yesterday morning I got up early-ish, had a shower.  Chose clothes to help show slim I'm looking now.  Used mousse in my hair to keep the curls, as nobody knew I had had my hair cut, let alone seen it.  I even applied some make up, which I very rarely do, so that I could look my best.  And they all comment on the state of my acne. :-(  After my mum's comments a few weeks ago, I've even been using specific cleanser and a night lotion to help.  Obviously they're not working are they.  DH is still convinced that my face isn't that bad, but it made me feel so rubbish.  I ended up asking directly about my weightloss and my new hairstyle.  My grandad asked if my hair had grown - nope, I've only had 6-8inches cut off a fortnight ago.  My Nan and my sister both said they liked my hair, though. 

Anyway, before I upset myself again I should stop there.  That was yesterday, and today is Mother's day.  I wonder if I could even fit a bath in later on? :-)

Oh, and my nan bought me a dress and a swimming costume in a size 14, because the dresses she bought for me before didn't fit.  The swimming cossie fits lovely - I'll look forward to wearing that on holiday in the summer - and DH said I look really slim in it.  And the dress, looks and fits really good, but really it is slightly to big, as I can easily pinch in a good inch from either side!

Book Review: How Children Learn by John Holt

How Children Learn, by John Holt.

I've just finished reading this book and it is excellent.  I read the revised edition, and one thing that makes it particularly good is that Holt has commented on the first edition.  Not just where he agrees, and provides further examples, but also where he disagrees with what he wrote first time (whereas you can imagine some writers deleting any 'wrong' bits, so you remain unaware that they are fallible).

How Children Learn
is the sequel to How Children Fail (which I haven't read yet, but plan to sometime), and looks primarily at toddlers and preschoolers – interesting for me because DD1 is 3.5yo.  And, like Maths for Mums and Dads (which I've reviewed before), this book also looks at the thought processes that children go through, so whilst they may not have the conventionally correct answer or terminology, actually the 'wrong' answer that they have arrived at is through a process of good thinking and logic.

The thrust of this book is that children do not have to be forced or coerced into learning, but do so naturally, thoroughly and properly (ie they are unlikely to forget  it) if they are leading the way and are interested in the subject matter.  Even if the child looks as if they are being scatty and all over the place, in fact they are making connections and learning about a variety of topics that are all interrelated rather than taking a subject out of context and not fully understanding what is happening.  Whilst John Holt is an advocate for home education, I think this book is equally useful for parents of preschoolers and nursery/primary teachers.

Quote about Brain Training

Some will say, “But I we can make children smarter, why not do it?” Why not indeed? But almost all bad ideas start life as good ones, and I fear it will not be long before this seemingly good idea will turn into one of the worst... We have already been trained to believe that knowledge, skill, and wisdom are the products of schooling... Soon we will be told that intelligence is the product of intelligence training... Indeed, compulsory intelligence training – by certified trainers, of course – may only be a step or two down the line.

Chapter: Learning & Love, from How Children Learn, by John Holt.
 
Dr Kawashima's Brain Training anyone???