Monday 15 August 2011

Library Books and Weightloss

  • Pets
  • Reptiles
These are our latest books out of the library.  DD1 seems to have stopped reading (or wanting to be read to) atm, but still wants to take books out of the library, so we've amassed quite a collection at home atm.

And, though not quite a week, I weighed myself this morning and haven't lost anything yet.  I've not been specifically dieting, so that's probably the reason, but it has crossed my mind, that I'm back on the Depo jab now.  I was never able to lose weight before, and the two times in recent history where I have been able to lose weight (immediately before getting pg with DD2, and immediately after her birth) I wasn't on contraception.  I hope this is just a coincidence, and it doesn't mean that I won't be able to lose weight at all now I'm back on depo.

Wednesday 10 August 2011

New weightloss

I'm starting again, with a new weight target (not just because I've put on weight since my last post smiley - whistle )

Current weight: 68kg
Goal weight: 60kg
Weight lost this week:N/A
Total weight loss: N/A

So, I lost the weight I wanted to for my sister's wedding, and everyone said how good I looked, which was nice. It did occur to me, though, that I lost a similar amount before I got pg with DD2 and nobody commented. I know I didn't change shape that time, despite losing over 2.5stone, I didn't drop a single dress size. That used to frustrate me with celebrities who would lose a single lb, but drop 3 dress sizes. smiley - grr This time, I lost weight and went from a size 18 to a size 14; and some of my 14s are too big - hurray! I've never been skinny, and tbh I don't think it'd suit me. My previous goal was 10st-something, which I made, and my ultimate goal was 10stone. This time, my first goal is 10st (approx 64kg) and my ultimate goal is a bit lower, so I know that if I do vary a bit, it's all ok.

I've got rid of all my clothes that are size 16 and above (except a few special things, including my wedding dress), and you wouldn't believe how many of my family (and DH's) have said that was silly, because what if I put on the weight again. Hmpf! smiley - erm They have no confidence in me to stay healthy, or buy myself some clothes! Well, it's a good thing I'm not going to put on weight, or I'll have to be naked, and that'd teach them! smiley - winkeye smiley - laugh

Thursday 4 August 2011

Two!!

DD1 was being naughty again, and climbing on the table again again (it's a butterfly table, so cannot take the weight), so I shouted at her to get off, and finished by saying "How many times do I have to tell you?"  "Two!" she answered cheerfully.  It took all my concentration not to burst into giggles!  She was wrong anyway, because in the 3 mins I've been typing this, I've had to tell her to get off the table again. Hmpf.

An update

I realised I haven't been posting for a while.  A mixture of life having got in the way, me persuing ideas for The Swap Shop UK on facebook, and me falling asleep in the evenings, even when I'm watching a programme I'm really interested in (like Sherlock, last night).   This post is just an eclectic catch up of what's been happening round here.

So, recently when we've been to the library and got out the following books:
  • How does a ship float?
  • The lion king
  • Princess Rani
  • Bathtime
  • Bless you!
We're also doing the Circus Stars Summer Reading Challenge where you have to read 6 books.  Well, we'd finish it in one week, if we just tried to read 6 books, so we just go back for 6 weeks.  We've already collected the first sticker for our circus stage.

My sister's wedding went really well.  Again, I need to write a separate post about that, but I can now start losing weight again.  That said, i haven't started yet, and will do so after this weekend.  I'm visiting my grandparents, so there is no point even trying to eat healthily there, but next week I will start watching my weight again.  I won't be doing the fat burning foods diet, but will be applying those principles to my normal cooking for the family.

The veg patch is really doing well.  We've been eating tomatoes, spring onions (which are now bulbous and the size of shallots!), and I've even had a few carrots.  The strawberry plant served us well, but has since died, because the hanging basket dried out over the weekend of my sister's wedding.  Next year, though, I will try and plant the seeds at the right distance apart to begin with, so I don't need to keep thinning down.

I still want to move house, and we're still unable to.  Sadly, I have started playing the lottery and so far have won £2.50 on the lottery and £1 on a scratch card.  Not enough for my dream house, yet.  My dream house is still available atm which is probably prolonging my misery.  I'd love to move into no 11 but it's not looking likely.  I've even tried to set my sights lower, and I've found no 13 Chapel Court but we still can't afford that.  It's half the price of my dream house, but double the price of where we currently live, that's in negative equity.  As I said before, we've no chance of ever moving house unless we win the lottery, but in the mean time I'm slowly losing all my savings.  You'd think for a semi-intelligient woman I'd know better, wouldn't you?

I am working on getting more money, without the lottery, although I know this is a much longer term solution, rather than the quick fix I need for either of the homes I want.  I've bought a website for my tutoring (a domain name and a hosting package) in order to advertise myself some more.  Unfortunately, I'm not that technically savvy at programming level languages (I can cope with the higher level drag/drop with a small amount of coding, but what I've bought seems to require a lot more) so DH is going to have to help me.  Unfortunately, with his anxiety, he's not convinced I've done the right thing.  Especially as i've bought a second domain name www.theswapshopuk.com so I can develop my swap shop idea.  Atm I'm planning everything on paper, and then will type the text up and send to DH so he can put it together for me.  He said it looked fairly easy, but when I queried whether that was 'easy for him' or 'easy for him to teach me' his face suggested it was the former, so it may be a while yet, before either of these sites go live.  At worst, I've just wasted £70, which would be a few takeaways; at best, I've not got the means to make some more money.  The website it meant to have an easy to use website building function thing called Click be.  I haven't even found that yet, so I really do need to learn more!

    Tuesday 26 July 2011

    The Swap Shop UK

    So, I have set up a page on FB called The Swap Shop UK.  The idea is simple: it's a mix of freecycle and ebay, so you list items that you have to offer, and people who want that item contact you directly, offer you something of theirs, and arrange a swap.  Lots of people seem to think it is a good idea, and after joining a couple of networking sites, in less than a week, I have over 150 Likes!  I just need to get more people to actually start offering things, because it is a bit slow atm.

    The Swap Shop UK doesn't make any money from the transactions, and it is free to join and list your items; it just provides a platform for the transactions to take place.  There is a list of items that are banned (animals, alcohol and products, tobacco and products, adult material, fake designer things, and anything illegal, amongst others), so I need to work out a way of keeping those off from being offered.

    Meanwhile, I am also looking at setting up a separate, non-FB site.  It will have higher security, and better features, and though I will be paying, personally, for the domain and hosting, I still will not be taking any money from the transactions.  Instead, if the website gets a fair amount of traffic, I will try to cover costs from advertising, so I am not out of pocket.  DH is worried about the legality, but I will have t&cs such that The Swap Shop UK is not liable for anything, and it is up to the individuals to declare (where appropriate) any gains to the HMRC.  I now have got to the point, where I want to move forward with this.  I don't think it will be a huge money spinner, tbh, because I am not charging to register, nor charging per listing (like ebay).  The idea is that you swap stuff, not cash, and in the same vein, it won't cost the individual anything to list and swap their items either.

    I do want to get this going, and I have found a company that I can get hosting for £8.50/yr and a domain name for £10/yr, so if I do decide to add adverts to the site, I need to make at least £20/year, but I'd hope that would be possible.  I then need to work out how to direct any FB traffic to the new website, but hopefully that would be ok!?!

    Wednesday 20 July 2011

    Swap Shop - a trial.

    So, I've been giving this some more thought.  Incidentally, DH thinks it's a silly idea, and that if i should do anything, I should try and promote one of the existing sites.  I, however, have a tendency not to take the easy route. lol.  And anyway, I need a project to keep me busy.  So what that I'm a SAHM and pt tutor, there's always more hours in the day, right?  And as I'm discovering, if you want anything done, then do it yourself!

    So (again), I initially thought about starting up a separate website, and use FB to try and promote it - you know how things go viral.  But, paying for a website, and then using FB seems a bit silly, so as a trial I am going to set up a FB Page or group to see how it fares.  if the interest is huge, then it probably makes sense to set up a separate webpage.

    Now I'm going to have to go about doing this.  My first point of call is to do some research on pages vs groups.  I'm not sure which is better?  If I have to set up a new FB account to do a page, then I will have to get a free email address, as I don't want to link it to me (yet. Of course, if it's successful...).

    Then once the page/group is set up, I will have to link to it and share as much as possible to try and get members/'likes'.  And I have to hope that some people will start swapping.  It will be not for profit, and no money is to exchange hands.  In the research I was doing yesterday, I saw some info on tax, so I may reproduce/link to it.  In the same vein as ebay, I think you only need to declare if you are a frequent swapper or have made capital gains, but clearly I'm no lawyer or tax expert, so I don't know.

    Anyway, I'll start researching now, whilst I'm waiting for dinner to cook, and maybe you'll join me in my quest for swapping.

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    Edit: if you are on FB, please search for The Swap Shop UK and like it.  It is a cashless swapping site, and I need 25 'likes' to have a better/more direct address.

    Tuesday 19 July 2011

    Swap Shop!

    I'm really trying to find new ways that will enable us to move house.  My short-term plan of winning the lottery, so far, isn't succesful, so I'm trying to come up with other things. 

    My first thought was a house raffle, where people buy a ticket for the raffle (say £1000 each), we only need to sell 200 tickets, and then someone can win our house!  Whilst there are a couple of site that will help with that such as http://win-house.co.uk/blog/running-your-own-competition.html, house raffles are actually illegal in the UK.  This can be overcome by setting up a competition, rather than a raffle (eg to enter you have to pay however much and answer a question), but it seems like a lot of effort.  Especially considering that many houses that you can win are over £1M and many of them haven't sold enough tickets, so have remained unsold (though the winner gets a cash prize of the profits).  Given that our mortgage is currently £120k and our house worth approx £105k, I'm guessing that people probably won't be up for spending £1k for a chance of winning it.  Even if we dropped the price of the ticket to £10, then we would need to sell 14,000(!) just to make the recommended 15% to cover costs!

    So, now I'm inspired by The Red Paperclip story (http://oneredpaperclip.blogspot.com/).  You know the one - a guy starts with a paper clip, keeps swapping it until finally he has a house!  Simples!  So, now I've been looking at various swapping websites.

    My first difficulty, is that most 'swapping' websites are nothing of the sort, but rather are selling websites.  That is fine, but I'm cash poor, but have lots of stuff. I freecycle a lot (as ebay generally costs me the listing fees, but doesn't make much money), and maybe just maybe I can swap my old things for something better?

    The only true swapping sites that I have found are http://www.preloved.co.uk/ and http://www.u-exchange.com/.  (I have come across a few skills-swap sites, but atm I'm reserving my 'skill' of tutoring for paying customers! lol)  Even http://www.craigslist.org/about/sites (which the red paperclip guy used) is mainly selling.

    Whilst browsing the first two sites, I discovered that you can swap your house!  Most of the sites, if you type into google, are links to swapping council houses.  Not being a council tenant, that's not what i'm looking for.  However, there are swapping sites for owners of houses.  Some of them are proper swaps, some are selling sites (but without estate agent fees).  Still, I'll list them all here, as it's interesting to know what is about:
    http://www.houseswaptogo.co.uk/
    http://www.swap-a-property.co.uk/index.php
    http://www.uk-auction-websites.co.uk/
    http://www.ukpropertyswap.com/
    http://www.switchproperties.co.uk/

    So, now I am going to raid my stuff, and try my damnedest to up-swap my things.  TBH, I am tempted to set up a pure swapping website, as I do feel that is lacking.  the main thing holding me back is lack of interest/awareness.  I'm sure the interest is there - just see how popular freecycle is! - but setting up a website, and relying on other people to share it, word of mouth; will it work?  Or will it just end up being a list of my junk (sorry, I mean 'highly desireable stuff') and nobody interested at all.

    If i did set it up, it would require free membership and absolutely no money to exchange hands.  All 'adverts' would be 'offers' and it would be up to the 'wanter' (that's a T, not a K - hehe) to make an offer.  All adverts expire after 7 days, at which point the 'giver' can choose from the offers that has been made, that which is the best for him.  If there have been no offers, or nothing that he wants, he can relist the item, which again, would automatically expire after 7 days.  Regarding actually swapping, it would be up to the 'wanter' to arrange delivery/postage/collection etc; so it may be better to set this up regionally perhaps?  Maybe not at first, I'll wait until there were enough members for things to start moving.  Maybe have ratings (ebay stylee) of 'givers' so that people know who they can trust, and if someone doesn't swap/send the item, they will get removed from the site.  Not sure how the details will work, I'll have to give it some more thought, but if you are reading this, do you think it'll be a good idea?  Would you be interested in something like that?

    Friday 15 July 2011

    Library Books

    Quick update, as I'm meant to be logging off...

    • Smart Aunties
    • Where's Wally
    • The green queen
    • I'm hungry!
    • Panzee plays hide and seek
    • Who's there, spot?
    • Goldilocks and the three bears.
     Good night all.

    Feeling stressed

    Yesterday was a bad day.  I was feeling stressed and overwhelmed and sad, so i posted the following on one of my many forums.  Then people started saying, maybe I had signs of PND, which stressed me out some more.
    I will reproduce what I wrote here, but am happy to say that I am feeling much better today, and me and the kids have been for a long cycle ride/walk, had pizza hut buffet for lunch, and am now back home having fun.

    I've feeling sooo stressed and frustrated and sad and angry atm. And the worst thing is I keep taking it out on DD1. It's not helped that she keeps winding me up and deliberately going against what i have said - but then she is only 3 still. I'm overtired, running on empty and i know i snap when I haven't had enough sleep. Again, DD2 ended up in bed with us last night, and was screaming and howling for far too long. Even magic BM isn't working atm. I don't know if she's teething (she was showing signs, but they've seemed to have stopped now) so I gave calpol which did seem to help. Then this morning, DD1 woke up at silly o'clock and starting shouting 'help help' and ended up waking DD2. She always does that for attention, and doesn't understand the consequences, even though I keep telling her not to should 'help' or 'emergency' . She's too young to understand Peter cried wolf, and as I have bad memories of it, I don't want to introduce the Matilda poem yet.
    So, all i'm doing is screaming like a banshee, getting myself more stressed, feeling carp that the house is always a mess, and I can't do anything right. DD2 has been screaming all morning, DD1 wants to do painting outside, so i said yes, as soon as she has put the blocks away. (There are toys all over the floor, and i've only asked her to put 1 away.) Cue more cries of 'help help'. She's 3 fgs, and has done it a million times before - she does not need me to watch her every second of the day, especially when i'm trying to do what she asked for in the first place!
    So, i spend ages trying to get the table out of the shed. As you'd expect, our shed is a complete mess, and DH has dumped his bike on top of everything, and caught the pedals round stuff, so i can't even move it. I eventually wrestle the table free, and think i'll set up the parasol (that we bought last year and never used) so DD2 can be outside too. So, i find the parasol base, eventually manage to wrestle the small table free (to stabilise the parasol) and somehow manage to lift DH's bike and tent bags and DD1's bikes all at the same time to squeeze the still-boxed parasol out from underneath everything. I put it on the grass to set it up, and immediately gets swarmed with ants (we've about 6 diff nests in the garden), so I move to the patio. The parasol, doesn't fit into the base we've got. DD1&2 are still screaming inside, through all this. Anyway, I try to set the parasol up, and the sodding thing has bent so the umbrella bit doesn't fit into the pole. It's never been used, and i feel carp. I've had a look on argos thinking i could take it back for an exchange as i still have all the packaging, but i think that because it's from last year, the catalogue codes have changed.
    so i come back inside, and DD1 hasn't put a single block away, and is still shouting help. DD2 is still screaming, so i sit down to feed her, and DD1 goes outside, and i explicitly say not to touch the paint stuff until I go out there. Then I here 'mum, mum, the paint as spilt'. She's opened all the bloomin bottles (there's only 3 there) and split them all over the floor. I haven't been outside yet, as DD2 is still feeding, and just hope that she hasn't got paint on the parasol as i'm hoping to exchange it. So I'm still screaming, and i want to cry. I'm doing my best, but clearly my best isn't good enough and i just feel so rubbish. I can't see a way out of me feeling like this. i feel like I'm running up a down-escalator and not going anywhere, but if I dare stop for a second, things just get worse and worse. And I know I spend too long on forums and things when i'm stressed, which doesn't help matters, but it's an escape, especially when everyone is screaming. And on netmums there was a thread about a lazy SAHD who only had 2 kids to look after, and couldn't even manage to keep the house tidy, and all these bloomin perfect mums who have a million kids, a proper routine, spotless house, dinner on the table for when OH walks through the door etc etc etc, all suggesting the OP kicks her hubby out! He does more than me, so I must be truly rubbish. And i keep living in a dreamworld, dreaming ridiculous things, wishing my life were different, when i should really get off my backside and do something, but i'm too lazy and stupid to do anything about it. Meanwhile, I'm back here again, ranting away in my own self absorbed thread, whilst DD1 is yet again 'cuddling' DD2 (ie pushing her to the floor) and 'patting' (hitting) her whilst DD2 cries and i feel out of control of the situation. I was going to suggest DD1 invites nextdoor round (they've 3yo twins, and we go round there, but they never come round here) to do painting outside, but the room is still a mess and i want to cry. And after all that, i don't even feel better, just sorry for myself. sorry. And my temper is getting shorter and shorter, and i'm getting more physical with DD1 which I don't like (like grabbing her arm when she goes to hit me or DD2) and now if I tell her off she's started shouting back "don't hit me" which makes me feel even more carp. And it's not helped that DH (who suffers with anxiety depression) is wishing he never took this job as he hates it, and wishes he worked where he used to, even though their jobs are on the line every few months. I wish i could be content and happy and useful.Sorry for the moan. i don't feel like I can talk to anyone in RL about this, because everyone seems to be better than me and i'm so embarrassed. I can't even get my house together for when people arrive expectedly, let alone if i don't know about it in advance. My mum thinks we live in a pigsty, as does DH, and i do try, but obviously not hard enough. I've got so many things going on atm, even with this mammoth ramble (sorry about that) i haven't got half of it off my chest. I need to blurt it out, i'm not expecting anything in return.
    As I said, I'm feeling better now.  It's good to know that i'm not the only person who feels like this sometimes.  And in turn, if you're reading this, it's good for you to know that other people (ie me) feel like this too sometims.

    Wednesday 13 July 2011

    Dear Diary,

     I want to move!  And because we didn't win Euromillions yesteday (not even the £2-something prize) I should be resigned to the fact it isn't going to happen anytime soon.  And it is not helped that I keep torturing myself by looking at homes.  I have yet again, found some more homes that i would be more than happy to live in.  This time they're by Persimmon and I've looked at Persimmon's offers, and we still can't afford anything.  And, on top of it all, i'm starting to feel angry towards my parents (in my head, not in RL) for not having enough money to loan me the deposit.  One of the offers is a Parental Loan scheme, where the 'rents pay the deposit and earn 5%pa interest on the loan, which will be repaid after 2 years.  Not bad!  But mine, nor DH's parents have that kind of money.

    And I'm feeling jealous of my sister.  She's getting married in 10 days, and her ILs have paid for their honeymoon - a cruise round the caribean. And the ILs paid the deposit on my sister's house.  And after around 3 years working (as a teacher) my sister is earning more that I was when I left employment; and probably more than I would've been earning now, even if I had stayed.

    I feel like I have been sold a lie: that you can have it all.  Or that getting a good education (I went to Oxford uni, don't you know) means you'll have pick of the jobs.  Or that by working hard, you can work your way up within a company.  Definitely that we needed to get on the property ladder.  If we hadn't, and we were still renting, we would have by now a huge deposit and be in a much better position to move.  We could even move into a bigger/better rented property, if we didn't own this place.

    This place, back in 2007, was a fantastic house for the price, and a really good 'first house'.  Now, we're stuck in one of the worst/poorest areas in the town we live in.  As I don't work anymore, there's no need for us to live here and we'd be much better off living closer to DH's work.  We're in negative equity, with zero deposit saved.  (Well, we probably could scrape together £3-4k, but that's nowhere near 5%, let alone the 15-20% you need for most mortgages these days.)

    I sound really ungrateful and bitchy.  I don't mean to be.  I know there are a lot of people worse off than us.  I just wish I could be content with my lot, instead of always dreaming.  Thing is, I don't think dreams in themselves are bad things.  I think it is a good thing to always want to better yourself, or your environment, and to aim high.
    "Aim for the moon, and even if you miss, you'll land amongst the stars." 
    I just wish my dreams were slightly more realistic and achieveable.

    On the positive side, though, my desperation to get more money in order to move, means i am actually moving stuff around my house myself, rather than waiting for DH.  Our study, is the small box room, and that's the room I intend to tutor in.  (My thoughts are that if I can tutor at home, I can get more people through the door so can make more money.  and even if i can't get more people through the door, at least I'll be at home and switched off for longer, rather than having up to an hour's drive there/back.)  However, atm there is zero space to tutor, as the desk in there is very small (only 2ft wide, I think) and you cannot even sit under it as it is a computer desk.  There is a sofa bed in there, and 3 book shelves, which are cram-packed with books, overflowing and messy.  And no room to swing a mouse, let alone a cat!  So, the plan is to move the bookshelves into our bedroom, move the sofabed to where the bookshelves were, and buy a folding, wall table from which I tutor.

    That's all good in theory, but we have no space in our bedroom, so we're having to change everything round in there too.  As I've recently lost a lot of weight, i've been giving away all my size 16 and 18+ clothes (to my sister, mum and freecycle), so i can get rid of one of my two wardrobes.  Then, we're moving the two other wardrobes (mine and DH's) out of the cubbyhole, into the space where the first wardrobe was and where my chest of drawers were.  My chest of drawers have now been moved to next to my bed, where my bedside table and dirty clothes basket were.  These two have now been moved from beside my bed, to in front of our existing shelves.  In the space in the cubbyhole that has now been vacated, will be where the 3 bookcases from nextdoor will be moved to.  Phew!  Understand any of that? Hehe.

    So far, I have moved my chest of drawers, emptied the wardrobe we're removing, and moved DH's wardrobe.  That's a lot more than I thought I would be able to do on my own, when I'm trying to entertain two children and ensure they don't get in the way or in trouble.

    Whether it will work in practice, especially given that we have 2 preschoolers here and have to hope that they will be quiet or go to bed good, is another thing.  I'm still working on trying to get DD2 into some kind of bedtime routine.  Tonight she fell asleep in my arms after 8, and I went to put her upstairs at 8.30ish.  Unfortunately, DD1 who should've been in bed already, was screaming and woke her up.  Fortunately, though, the presence of DD2 seems to have a calming effect on DD1 (she's going through a phase atm of not liking being alone) and I managed to get them both settled in bed by 8.45.  DD2 was nearly back to sleep, and DD1 was reading to herself.

    I can only hope.  Unless you, dear blog-reader, want to donate a few thousand pounds to me?

    Yours,
    LBP.

    Sunday 10 July 2011

    Nudefest

    Last month we returned to Nudefest, a week long naturist holiday in Cornwall.  This was the first year it was a week in length, previously it was a long weekend, and it was our second visit.  Somehow I had got roped into organising kid's painting, which meant in the week beforehand I had to buy paint and paper, and all the accessories for a total of £30, so there was enough for an hour's painting a day, for an unknown number of kids.  This was also our first time camping with DD2, and our car was FULL!

    But we got there alright, and although the weather on that first Sunday wasn't great, we eventually managed to get the tent set up, even with the DDs screaming in the back of the car.  It was windy and pouring with rain.  Newperran had a new restaurant, but we had missed dinner time, by the time we arrived, so we had a few sausage rolls in our tent and snuggled up for the night.

    Over the week there were some new activities, and even though we did have the children with us, DH and I did our best to do what we wanted too.  DH had a go at archery, and I had a go at Zumba.  I'm sure it was probably because I'm half the age of some of the people there, but it was not as fast paced, or hard work, as I was expecting.  I'm sure, if it was a 'normal' Zumba class (rather than one catering to the guests) I would have found it much more hard work!  DD1 loved painting everyday, and it was a good thing it was a naturist holiday, because she literally ended up covered head-to-toe with paint!  The campsite has really good facilities, so we would head off straight for the shower, and we looked as good as new.

    There were also some 'world first' naturist trips.  We went to Newquay Aquarium, one evening.  Unfortunately there were far too many people there, for the size of the place, which menat lots of waiting around.  DD1 was easily bored, and with DD2 in her pushchair meant it wasn't much fun for us either.  Not to mention there was lots of press about (and as our family don't know we're naturists, we certainly don't want to appear in any papers!), which meant we were on guard and couldn't enjoy ourselves.  And because it was an evening trip, both children got overtired, so we left early.

    The following day, they did a trip to the Zoo.  Given how the Aquarium visit went, we didn't fancy that - sillily, we had already mentioned it to DD1 and she was looking forward to it.  So, we went by ourselves during the day, rather than on the organised trip.  It was much better and much more relaxed.  Friends who went said the Zoo was much better than the Aquarium trip, but I think we made the right decision. 

    We also went to Paradise Park ourselves, and have a lovely photo of DD1 with a parrot on her arm collecting money.  This was very expensive though, but it did have a soft play (thankfully as it was pi$$ing down with rain!) so we spent a fair amount of time there.  They had 'death slides' which took me straight back to my childhood as I was petrified of them (I'm still scared of heights).  I did go on the bumpy slide with DD1, but for some reason she prefered to go on with DH than me.  That was a shame, because I really enjoyed it, but felt silly going on it on my own - so I didn't.

    And we went to Perranporth again.  We spent a brief time on the beach, but it was very windy.  We bought a windy break, in the hope it would protect our tent - it didn't work.  We did have ice cream, which was nice, and spent a fiar amount of time in Newquay too, and bought too much fudge and too many cream teas.  Yum!

    The wind was atrocious, and by the end of the week, our tent (thanks to only 1 high guy-rope and the poles that are designed to bend) was practically flattened.  So much so, that we were tempted to leave a day early, but we stuck it out and our tent did last.  We did promise ourselves to get a more wind-resistent tent, though.  Our tent wasn't the worst, though.  Some actually broke, and another friend had the infamous floating tent - a pop up tent, with not enough pegs to hold it to the ground when the wind blew!

    Despite how this probably sounds, we did actually have a good time, and will hopefully be back next year (with hopefully better weather too). 

    Incidentally, we have now bought a new tent - an 8 berth (our previous was 4-berth) with more wind protection and is large enough that if we are in bad weather again, we don't feel too cramped.  We freecycled our old tent, and it was really popular.  Despite me saying that it has been collected - twice(!) - I'm still getting emails requesting it.  Hmpf.  If they continue tomorrow, I may contact the email-group owner.

    3rd World Glasses Collection Service

    I've recently had my eyes tested again.  I go to specsavers and because I only go once every 2 years i use the voucher then send, so the eye test is only £7.50 (did you know it has gone up to £22!).  However, I find their glasses ridiculously expensive, so I buy my glasses online from www.spex4less.com. They currently are having a sale on, so I've bought 2 pairs of normal glasses plus some sun glasses.  It will take some getting used to, as my current glasses are transitions, but at least I won't be squinting when I drive anymore (transitions don't work behind glass).

    Anyway, they are currently doing a collection service of old glasses to give to the 3rd world, and are asking people who write a blog to spread the word - which is what I'm doing.  So if you have old pairs of glasses hanging around the place please send them off for a good cause.  There are more details here.

    Friday 8 July 2011

    Photoshoot

    As part of a fundraising thing for DD1's gymnastics, we made a donation to the club, and got a free professional photoshoot plus a picture worth £60 free.  The photoshoot was on Wednesday, and I'd love to get a canvas of DD1 and DD2 together for our living room wall.  Both DDs were in their best clothes (though we had to pretend it was Christmas, because DD1 only wears her purple dress at Christmas, lol) and they had lots of different shots done, together and separately, as well as a few 'nudie' shots of DD2.  Afterwards we booked a time to view the photos with DH (next week, 8pm.  Unfortunately we can't get a babysitter, so we'll have both DDs with us) and I was given the pricelist, with various options.

    Wow!  The free photo worth £60 is only 7x5inches.  A 24x24 canvas/print is £445! and having only 5 images on CD is £395!  We are desperately trying to save moeny (and were planning on buying a new tent this week) so really cannot afford those prices.  We've looked online and have found that some art printers will put a photo (as in an actual photo, rather than a digital photo) onto a large canvas for around £60, so we're tempted now just to get the free photo and get someone else to blow it up.  Of course, the quality may not be worth it, so I'm not sure what to do for the best.  A friend also recommended another photographer (and her website says an hour photoshoot plus 10x8 print is only £25) so I've contacted her to ask approximately what cost the larger prints would be, as I don't want to waste her time.  Hopefully she'll get back to me, before we view the photos next week.  That way, I'll be more confident that we're doing the right thing, by not buying the expensive ones.  Shame, really, as the photographer was really nice and good with the children, but we really cannot afford it.  Nevermind.

    It has put in my mind, though, that I would like a nude portrait of all of us, once DD2 is walking.  Nothing obscene, but DH holding my hand, holding DD1, holding DD2.  All of us standing in a row, and the photo taken from behind, in black and white, and maybe just a 10x8 print.  I think that would look good on the landing, or in the hallway.  I also wonder whether anybody would realise it was us, or whether they just thought it was an arty shot.

    Tuesday 5 July 2011

    My Sister's Hen Night

    This seems like ages ago now, as it was the start of June.  There was a bit of stress about me getting there, in the first place, as we didn't have anyone to babysit DDs 1&2.  My mum was invited, My dad, and FIL were both on holiday (separately), which left MIL who refused to come here on her own, as her husband was working.  DH couldn't take the day off work, because he didn't have many holidays left and the few days he did have, he had to keep spare for my upcoming hospital appointments.

    In the end, this was resolved by me going on the train to MILs with the children alone, when DH was in work, staying overnight, and the next day (Friday) I would then go back to Bristol, to my grandparent's house to pick up all my stuff and get a lift with my sister's best friend up to Manchester, whilst DH goes to work on Friday and after work, he'll drive to his mum's to look after the girls.

    I was also *really* nervous about taking the pushchair on the train by myself.  I had DD2 in the wrap, and DD1 is more than capable of walking, but MIL was adament that she wanted the pushchair too.  My mum said MIL should buy a cheap one (like my mum has done).  The Thursday came, and typically, DD1 (who never sleeps during the day) was asleep at 11am!  So, I had no choice, but to load her into the pushchair asleep, with DD2 attached to me, and go on the bus to the train station.  And walking to the trainstation was the next bit of stress because there were a million coaches outside, and i had no idea what I was menat to do if there was rail replacement.  Fortunately, it didn't affect our service.

    We were an hour early, though, because we had to get a specified train, but to be fair, both girls were really good, even though they were bored, and didn't run off or anything.  And even though we were early, it was good that we had to catch that train - the train before was an hour late, and the train before that was delayed by 2 hours (!) so they all arrived within 15mins of each other.  Our train was still busy, but somehow I managed to get on without losing anything.  (I have a fear of losing things under the train, and between the platform edge.)

    Anyway, we arrived and everything was all hunky dory.  That night, DD2 was ina room with me, in the travel cot and DD1 was in MIL's room, as usual.  Unfortunately, our room was ridiculously hot, so DD2 ended up in the single bed with me, so she could have loads of BFs.  She still woke up drenched in sweat and really hot, so I had to wet the muslin square to keep her cool and get her body temperature down.  It worked, thankfully, as I had no calpol with me - DH was bringing that with him in the car.

    The next day, I left and caught the train to my grandparent's house.  It was meant to take 3 hours, but we hit traffic as soon as we got of the sliproad onto the motorway, so ended up taking 4 hours.  Nevermind, we were there at last.

    The Chief Bridesmaid laid on this buffet, which was fantastic.  She's Argentinian, and there was a host of various foods and flavours.  My favourite was the chorizo (which I really should get the recipe for); it was cooked with white wine and sugar, and absolutely to die for!  And the chief bridesmaid gave everybody a Hen Party champagne flute, so we can remember the weekend, which was a lovely touch.

    My sister, being a teacher, had made badges for everyone, haha, and planned the first game which was an icebreaker.  Each of us had to come up with 3 sentences of what we had done with my sister: 2 false and 1 true.  The rest of us had to guess which was true, and 'bet' our drink whether we were right or wrong.  My sentences were: Sister and I used to eat worms in the garden. Sister and I used to watch ET everynight before bed. Sister and I used to float down the stairs.  Well, sister and I used to rescue worms from the garden, and put them in the composter.  I've never seen ET all the way through, because my sister was terrified of it growing up.  But we both have the memory of floating downstairs, without touching any of the steps, in our old house - so that was the true one.

    After that game, it was my turn.  In helping prepare for the night, I had done 2 things: Mr & Mrs, and also party bags for everyone, but they weren't coming out until the Saturday night.  For my Mr & Mrs game, I had already asked my sister's fiance 15 questions about them/their relationship from where did they meet, to what was my sister's fantasy - admittedly a couple of questions were TMI for my liking! haha.  I did ask "would you go on an all expenses paid naturist holiday?" to which both my sister and her fiance answered "no", so I won't be telling the family that we're naturist yet!  Finally, I ended with 5 "what am I?" questions.  Eg. a. I'm wet. b. I smell fishy. c. Men like to plunge into me.  What am I?
    The sea, of course! Tut, tut, tut, all you with naughty minds. Hehe.  And as with the previous game, eveyone else had to place bets as to whether my sister would know the answer or not.  My sister, depending on whether she got the answer right or not, got a 'nice' present (eg chocolates, smellies etc) or a 'naughty' present (dressing up stuff for the saturday, and a few things for her and her fiance).  After more drinks, shots, and chat we played I have Never, though, tbh I found that a bit boring because nothing particularly juicy came up.

    The next day, we had a Bridesmaid dress fitting - all because I have lost weight.  I got down to 64kg, and my sister has banned me from losing any more weight now until the wedding, as there's no time for another fitting.  We also saw my sister in her dress and she looks beautiful, of course.

    The we went to the spa.  I had hot stone massage for my treatment, which was really nice, but not as long as I was expecting/hoping for, as it was only 30mins.  As I was having the same treatment as my mum, we went in together.  We had to take pull our swimsuits down to our waist, and lay front-down on the table.  My mum commented that she was glad to share a treatment room with me because she didn't mind me seeing her boobs, and she didn't mind seeing mine either.  Yep, more proof that my family are not yet in a place to know we're naturists, haha.    The other thing, is that because I still breastfeed, being away from DD2 this whole weekend, I needed to express fairly regularly, one of these times was in the spa itself.  I went to the ladies' changing room and sat on the seat, and expressed.  A lady was in there, and asked me to help with the zip of her dress, and then we had a brief conversation about expressing. She left, and my mum came in (this was just before our treatment, as I needed to empty my boobs before I could lie on my front!).  My mum basically said [I can't remember her exact words now] that should I be doing that in here?  I just said yes, but where the hell else am I meant to be.  I was in the women's changing room ffs!  Although I was tempted to express on the side of the pool (it was only our group there), #I wasn't going to because I know my mum's reaction.  And then, she went on to say what if other people had come in?  Well, one person had come in and talked about it, and a few other people came in briefly to change their clothes and either didn't notice, but didn't comment in any place, so clearly nobody - except my mum - minds. Argh.  I find my mum's attitude to me BFing so bloomin' frustrating.

    Anyway, I managed to get 30 lengths of the swimming pool swum, and had a shower first, so I could get some more expressing in, before our evening.  We got the taxi back to my sister's house, and the taxi driver drove down a road that was blocked, so attempted to do a 3 point turn, but hit a bollard, showering my sister in glass!  He didn't even stop to ask if everyone was ok, but continued driving!  Needless to say, pictures went straight up on facebook! The three people in the back row, moved forward (we were in a 16seater minibus, but with only 10 of us in), which was a good thing too, because throughout the rest of the journey, glass kept splintering off, and shattering on the ground.

    We got to my sister's in one piece, and got dressed quickly.  I handed out a sash for everyone (green with pandas on) and a party bag each.  The 'Hen Night Survival Pack' contained:
    For a good night out:
    Panda Mask
    Badge
    Cocktail Can
    Party Poppers
    Sweets
    Stickers
    Nail File
    In case you get lucky:
    Toothbrush
    Clean pair of pants
    Condoms
    For the morning after:
    Can of Full-fat Coke
    Alka Seltzer
    Chewing Gum
    Hair bands
    And everyone seemed to appreciate the time, and humour, of the bags, which was good.  (If you haven't guessed yet, my sister is obsessed with pandas, which is why there was a big panda theme throughout.)  We then went to the salsa night.  For one price, we had champagne on arrival, a salsa lesson, tapas meal, and free entry to the club all night.  And it was a proper dancing club, rather than a meat market, so people were up and dancing all night.  I had a good time, even though I stopped drinking fairly early, but I do regret not asking anyone to dance.  I do Ceroc dancing, and though the beat is slightly different, many of the moves are similar to salsa.  That said, I did get one dance and he was awful.  He couldn't dance and couldn't lead.  I know everyone has to start somewhere, but he was friends with the best dancer in the place, and I wish I had the chance to dance with him instead.  Admittedly it was not helped that I was wearing a white dress, the club had UV lights (so I was the brightest thing there, lol), and I started leaking milk.  I couldn't wear breast pads, as they showed through the dress, so from that point on, I was wary about going to the main dance floor.  Again, with hindsight, I wish I just didn't care - it's not as if I'd see any of these people again.

    That's all there is really to say.  We went back for yet more drinks.  Had a good night sleep, and had breafast before getting a lift back to my grandparent's house in Bristol, where DH picked me up in the car (with DD1 and DD2, of course) and I drove home.  Very tired, but had a good weekend.

    Monday 4 July 2011

    Dear Diary,

     "Things are always a problem with you."  They're my mum's words which are now left ringing around my head, after I asked her for some advice/comfort.

    I don't like talking with the plate in my mouth.  I can talk pretty much normally without it in, but am still practicing with it in.  I don't like the feeling of eating without the plate in, but at the same time, I don't like the feeling of it in either.  So, I'm practicing eating with the plate in, but it is hard and slow.  My mouth is slowly getting back to normal, so I can open my mouth wider - which has helped - but i'm still scared about swallowing the plate, or doing something silly.  It all feels odd and unusual.  As my mum has worn a plate for years, I thought I'd ask her advice about how soon things will start to feel normal, and that is when she made the above comment.  I was taken aback, so i asked her to clarify, and she helpfully said that my entire life nothing is ever simple and things are always a problem.  Great.  Thanks then mum.

    On the good side, though, I had a smear today, and it didn't hurt!  I can barely believe it, as I find them agony, and I had been dreading it for weeks, knowing that these things need to be done.  I had both children with me; DD2 slept through as I had fed her just before (we were in the library) and DD1 was good drawing a picture of a skeleton.

    In the library, I restricted DD1 to 2 books, and she decided that that would be one book for herself and one book for DD2.  Then she said, she couldn't leave me out either, which is why we borrowed three books today.  Hopefully, though, she'll actually read them, as she has been going through a phase of borrowing books and not wanting to read them at all atm.
    * I'm hungry.
    * Who's there, Spot?
    * Goldilocks and the Three Bears.

    Then this afternoon has been a mixed bag.  DD1 has gone from being an angel, to hitting, kicking, pushing, both me and DD2.  I'm struggling atm, which I'm sure is because I am tired, and with the house being a mess, i feel like i can't cope.  On the good (bad) side, this isn't unusual, so i know these feelings will dissipate soon.  I have a busy week this week, so the anticipation of that probably isn't helping either.  Nevermind, there's always tomorrow.  Or maybe my mum is right - everything's a problem with me?

    Yours,
    LBP.

    Oh, and I've made the decision NOT to apply for that job.  Whilst, I potentially could have been earning mega-money, getting back in the rat-race, putting the kids through school, and 'doing everything that you're supposed to' is the easy option.  You only live once, and if I think I could 'put up with' working for a few years, to get some money, in the same vein, I could put up with living in the house for a few years, and have more of an adventure of teaching my own.

    Saturday 2 July 2011

    Teeth extracted!

     I am finally without my last baby tooth. :-(

    My teeth are strong, and my baby tooth was no exception, so rather than falling out when the adult tooth came along, it pushed the adult tooth into the middle of the palette of my mouth.  When I was 18 I was given the option of having the baby tooth removed and the adult tooth pulled into position, but given that I was an overweight brown-haired girl with glasses, I really didn't want to add wearing braces for 2 years into the mix when heading off to uni!  So, I didn't have the work done, and was told that the tooth could fall out next week, or last till I'm 50.

    Fast forward to now, and I'm 29 yrs old, and my baby tooth was finally wobbly.  As I'm on maternity, I've got a maternity exemption certificate, so I don't pay for dental work, so my dentist recommended I get the teeth out now.  Coincidentally, my adult tooth has started erupting through my palette, so that one was coming out too, AND when they did an X-ray, they found one of my wisdom teeth (which hasn't come through yet) had an infection in the root (not that it bothered me), so that one is coming out at the same time for good measure.

    So yesterday, off I went to hospital for an op under GA.  I was advised to have a light breakfast before 8am, and then only drink water until 12 (not a problem for me, as I only drink water anyway), but I'm gladd i had the breakfast.  I had to be at hospital for 12, but didn't get operated on until 4.30!  I'm so glad I had 2 books with me.  I finished 'How to talk...' and re-started 'Lady Chatterley's lover' for the third time.  I've finally got to the sex scenes hahaha.

    Now, I've had 3 teeth out, and I have a plate in my mouth with the 1 incisor on it, so I don't have a gap.  My mouth is sore, most of the pain is from the wisdom tooth removal, and I'm nervous of eating.  Last night, when I got home, I was starving, so I sent DH to the shops, and I ate a whole tin of custard, loads of rusks with milk, and frijj (sp?) milkshake.  I also have to rinse my mouth with salt water after every time I eat, which isn't too dignified, and I've no idea whether that is just for today, or until the stitches dissolve (2 weeks).

    And, I'm left not being able to talk properly, and given I'm doing a reading at my sister's wedding in 3 weeks time, I have to figure out what to do.  At least I'm now an adult with only adult teeth.

    Thursday 30 June 2011

    Dear Diary,

    Another Crazy idea and another self indulgent post.

    As well as me looking at houses we can't afford, I periodically look at what jobs are on offer. (Incidentally, there's only one of my 'perfect house' left for sale.  I worked out that if DH earned double his salary, we'd only get a mortgage for half the house.  And, if we miraculously could get a mortgage for that house, we'd need to pay over £3k per month! So it's not going to happen.) DH mentioned that there are vacancies at his company (he only started in Feb, and though he's not keen, it does seem they type of company I'd enjoy), so I had a look.  They have the job I would want, if I were to ever be employed again AND they say the main qualification (which I don't have) is desireable, rather than essential!  In fact, not being able to move into this role, was one of the reasons why I left my previous job to become SAHM in the first place.

    Now, I like being a SAHM and part-time tutor.  I want to HE (though if I *had* to go back to work, I don't have a problem with school in general).  But, the reality is that if we want to ever move house (not even to one of my ridiculous houses) I will have to be working a significant amount or full time, to ever come close to saving enough money.

    So, given that they have the job I'd want, I don't need the main qualification (I do have some experience, just not the qualification that most employers look for), and they ask for 'salary expectations' (so I could name my price), I'm very tempted to apply.  If I were to draw a tree diagram there are 3 routes, with 2 outcomes:
    1. I don't apply, and things stay as they are.
    2. I do apply, but don't get the job (at whatever stage), and things stay as they are.
    3. I do apply, and they offer me the job.

    As I said, I do enjoy my life atm, but having been brought up with 'get a good education and you can have whatever you want' and 'fulfil your potential', means I'm always looking for more.   These thoughts are specifically for working at DH's company, rather than generally looking for a job - which I don't want.

    Pros of working:
    *we could gain savings, to afford the lifestyle we want
    *I could travel with DH so no need for extra transportation costs
    *Travelling with DH would mean his day seemed shorter (which would help his enjoyment of the job)
    *There would be less pressure on DH to be the main breadwinner (which unusually for a bloke, he doesn't like)
    *I could start my career up again, as we're not planning any more children now.
    *I *really* want to move house.

    Cons of working:
    *I like the freedom I currently have to do what I want (despite lack of money and lack of car as constraints)
    *DDs 1&2 would immediately have to go into nursery full time (though we'd look for one in the town where DH's company is, rather than the town where we live)
    *I would not be able to HE.  I not only like the philosphy of learning, but worry DD1 may be too clever for school (I don't mean that to sound big-headed).
    *DD1 would have to stop gymnastics, as I wouldn't be able to take her.  She only started in April, and absolutely loves it.

    Hmmm, I'll probably think of more pros/cons during the day, but the main incentive is money, but I'm nore sure if I'm willing to 'sell my soul'. ;-)

    I am tempted to apply, with a high salary requirement, but say it's open to negotiation.  I've googled, and apparently the average salary for this job is £45k, but ranging from £35-60k.  I'm thinking, if I ask for £43k, being aware they are likely to offer a lower amount.  I'd need to work out what the lowest amount I'd accept is.  For example, when I stopped working before, I was on £25k (4days) and could only just afford nursery costs for 1 child, so I'd be looking for significantly more than that, to tempt me back to work. 

    And yes, I realise that all this may be getting ahead of myself, because if I do apply, they'll probably reject me without interview.  And yet, if I don't apply, I'll always be wondering (and I hate that - I'd rather know and be rejected, itms).

    Any thoughts at all?


    Yours, LBP

    Tuesday 28 June 2011

    Library Books

    Our house is overflowing with library books at the moment.  Again, I'm using the library's online catalogue to generate this list, which means there's no authors or anything usefully identifiable.
    • Puzzle Balloon Race
    • Snow White
    • You Choose!
    • The planet of terror
    • 1001 Animals to spot
    • The winter cave
    • Digger
    • Rainbow fish finds his way
    • Bears
    • Ten little fingers and ten little toes
    • Brer rabbit and the well
    • playtime
    • Winnie the pooh touch and feel
    • Waybuloo touch and feel
    •  Knights
    • The Cat in the Hat comes Back
    • That's not my dragon.

    Monday 27 June 2011

    Hard Rock Calling

    DH and I went to Hard Rock Calling on Saturday.  Bon Jovi is my favourite band, ever, and tickets to HRC were our Christmas presents to each other.  My mum came down to babysit (thank you) and look after DD1 & DD2.

    The festival was really good.  We 'discovered' Vintage Trouble and really liked them and Bon Jovi was great as usual.  It was a tad expensive - £4 a pint! And we forgot to take suntan lotion, so I'm really burnt on my arms and shoulders, but it was worth it.  Oh, and my hips and legs are still aching today (Monday) because I was non-stop dancing throughout.

    I'm very tired now, though, not helped by the train journey back.

    We had tickets for the last train back, and thankfully had reserved seats.  The train was packed, and some people were in our seats, but they didn't put up a fight and moved.  As I said the train was packed, and then there was an announcement from the train manager: there were too many people on board and it was dangerous so he was refusing to move.  For people wanting the first 2 stops, they were advised to use a different train (which was on the adjacent platform). Good for him!  I have been on trains much more packed than that one (unless the carriages behind us were even more crammed in), but you know if an accident were to happen then people would be getting on his back.  anyway, I assume people did move, because the train finally departed 15min late.

    Then, just as were were approaching Slough, the train manager was called to the buffet car.  Then, as we arrived in Slough, the train manager said they were trying to eject a passenger from the train because he has assaulted the buffet person and himself, and they were waiting for the police to arrive.  As while after that, there was another announcement. Sorry for the continued delay, the passenger left the train, and was now sitting on the track in front of the train preventing, not only us from moving, but also any other train from going through the station.  And, after a long time, other trains started to pass us, so there was yet another announcement.  The police had arrived, the person was removed from the track, but we had to wait until all the statements had been taken.  When the train finally started to move a cheer when through the carriages!  We finally arrived at our destination an hour late.

    And then, we had planned to get a taxi home, but we walked past the start of a non-existent queue to get to the taxis (as everyone in front of us had done) but missed the last taxi.  Meanwhile the queue appeared and was massive, and a crazy woman was busy yelling at someone for "pushing in" even though they were in front of her (but behind us) and banging on the taxi.  We couldn't be arsed to fight our case or go to the back of the queue so, despite my legs aching, and DH's feet hurting, we walked home. 

    Thursday 23 June 2011

    Dear Diary,

    I have sooo much to update you on: my sister's hen night, our recent holiday camping, gardening, weightloss (or lack of), our recent borrowings from the library, DD1's jump forwards by writing her name and spelling it correctly (even adults get the spelling wrong!), not to mention I think I still haven't written a book review of Playful Parenting, which I thought was really good.

    Unfortunately, despite having a hectic 3 weeks, we're back home and life still seems full rush.  I'm trying to catch up on clothes washing, and ended up having 3 loads on the line this morning, only to get caught in a sudden downpour.  So, now I've brought most of it inside, and am trying to dry it between the clothes horses in front of the radiator (i turned them back on for 10min) and the tumble dryer.  The rest that is still on the line will have to stay out there until there is some space in the kitchen.  We still haven't unpacked everything from our hols, though finally got arround to moving the tent etc back to the shed last night.  The living room is a mess (not uncommon) but my mum is coming up tomorrow to babysit for us on Sat (we're going to see Bon Jovi at Hard Rock Calling - hurray!) and she *always* complains about the state of our house - especially because I'm at home all day.

    I'm also debating whether to turn our upstairs box room into a room that I can tutor in (rather than me going to student's houses)?  I really want to move house, and whilst there are a few houses we could afford/get a mortgage on, we have zero deposit.  (By deposit, I'm including the negative equity difference on our current mortgage, and all lawyer/estate agent fees etc etc.) By tutoring at home, i'm hoping that we could get more people through the door on an evening, and therefore more money.

    Have to go now, as DD1 is demanding I read You Choose to her, yet again!
    Yours,
    LBP.

    Thursday 9 June 2011

    Quote from Newquay Zoo about Naturism

    Exclusive group visits are a big part of what we offer to the public and had no hesitation in agreeing to a visit from Nudefest guests - the majority of living creatures at Newquay Zoo never think of wearing clothes...it is about time some of our visitors did the same!
    Carl Lamb at Newquay Zoo

    Nudefest
    Nudefest Press Release

    Monday 6 June 2011

    Library Books

    • Book! Book! Book!
    • Amanda's Butterfly
    • You Choose!
    • The magic word
    • Stick Man
    • Three little pigs and a gingerbread man
    • Bedtime
    • Polar White
    • Gruffalo's Opposites

    Wednesday 1 June 2011

    Weird Kids: Is raising children unconventionally really bad parenting?

    I came across this article today, and whist I don't think HE is weird, I know some people do.

    I thought I'd let this article speak for itself.

    Monday 30 May 2011

    Coming on leaps and bounds

    DD1 really seems to like maths, and counting, adding and subtraction.
    She is now starting to enjoy multiplication, as I have been linking it to addition.  Her mental maths is getting very quick, and if she asks (in order to test) me "what is 4+4?" and I reply "the same as 6+2" she is happy with that answer, as she gets more confident with her number bonds.  I have also left the Peak Number Book Zero in her room, so she asks herself questions from there, and can do some of the sequences and things too.
    Counting, she can easily go up into the hundreds, and is recognising thousands too.  She likes to do sums on the calculator and ask me what the solutions are, so I have to reply "Five million, three hundred and twenty two thousand, four hundred and seventy nine", or whatever.  Sometimes I also pretend I can't do the simpler sums and she calls me silly mummy.

    DD1 also likes to talk in French, German and Spanish.  Only simple words, but she is getting good.  Atm she mixes the languages together, but that will come in time.   And reading, there is a much wider range of words that DD1 knows how to read and spell now.  Atm she isn't too interested in writing, so I'm not pushing it (she is only 3 after all).  The few letters she can write, she will do so over and over.  And she is starting to understand the importance of practice, which is good, so I've every confidence in her.

    We also bought her some Money Cards (she chose them) and not only does she recognise all the coins, now, it is helping with larger addition, for example 20p +50p = 70p.  DD1 will happily spend a good 30min-1hour just playing different games with these cards.

    And she has recently learnt how to catch.  DD1 has always been more academically minded, than physical, so I'm really pleased that she can now catch [easily thrown] large and small balls.  I can't wait until she can throw a decent distance/height though.  Next door are always throwing/kicking balls into our garden, and DD1 likes to give them back.  Unfortunately, she can't throw them over our 6ft fence, so we have to lift her up, so she can pop them over the top.  It will be much easier when she can do it herself.

    Monday 23 May 2011

    Weekly Weigh-in

    Current weight: 67kg
    Goal weight: 10st
    Weight lost this week: -1kg (ie gained a kilo)
    Total weight loss:11kg

    We were on holiday last week, and I ate whatever I fancied (which resulted in me feeling bad and bloated as I don't eat that much any more), so I'm pleased to only have put one kilo back on. smiley - smiley

    Library Books

    We nearly didn't make the library today, because DD1 was refusing to get dressed.  Then I had a phonecall from the librarian saying that she was expecting a school visit (30 kids) so to prepare DDs if we still did want to come.  Well, at that news, DD1 dressed like a flash and we arrived on time!  Unfortunately (for DD1) the school kids didn't turn up, but we still enjoyed Rhyme Time and got out some books:
    • Polar White by Trotter
    • Opposites by Donaldson and Scheffler
    • Stick Man by Donaldson and Scheffler
    • You Choose by Sharratt and Goodhart
    • The Magic Word by Moore and Remphry
    • Amanda's Butterfly by Butterworth
    • Bedtime: bright baby touch and feel (for DD2)
    • Three Pigs and a Gingerbread Man, by Robinson and Sanfilippo

    Saturday 21 May 2011

    First Taste of Strawberry!

    Title says it all, really.  We've been away for a week on holiday, and I thought my plants may have died, but no.  Though they were thirsty, they were still there, and we had 3 gorgeous, huge, red strawberries that were delicious and sweet.  Yum.  Much tastier than the best of the strawberries on offer in the shops. 

    Library Books

    A couple of weeks ago we got out of the library:
    • Jack and the Hungry Bear
    • Mum's Red Hat
    • Weather
    • Baby Beep! Beep!

    Sunday 15 May 2011

    Thinning out the onions

    My strawberry plant was flat again today.  Again, my thoughts turned to that damned pigeon/cat.  Nevertheless, I straightened the plant so it stood upright again, and watered it. Aha - the base of the hanging basket was bone dry.  So maybe the flattened strawberry was due to me, and not some creature.  I've watered the basket this morning and I will go back out and water it again later. I hope that tomorrow I will remember to water it again, and it will last now until Friday as that is the next chance I will be able to give it some water.  Either that, or I hope the weather is wet for our holiday.

    The tomatoes on the sunny side are still doing well.  They are starting to bush a bit now (rather than going vine-like as I was expecting), but still growing.  On the shady side, the tomato plants are still barely there at all.  I keep watering them, but I don't know when I should be giving up the ghost.

    My next jobs were to tidy the garden (remove the last of the dead leaves from nextdoor's palm that has finally died) and thin the onions. The first of these was very quick to do; the second, less so.  Before I could start thinning the onions, I needed to remove the turf from the area of garden I was going to move them to.  No chance of me even attempting to double dig this patch, but I did the best I could in the time available.  I removed the turf, and used a fork to break up the ground.  I guesstimated the size of patch I needed, in order to be most time efficient. 

    Then, I very carefully dug up some of the onions.  My gosh, they smell!  No wonder the onions hadn't been eaten by the slugs! LoL.  Onion plants are meant to be separated by around 3-4 inches, well, I've gone for approximately 1 inch separation for now, knowing that I'll need to thin them out again soon.  We have tons of onions!  I'm guessing that using up an entire packet of seeds was totally unnecessary, but at least I know for next time.  I would have separated out the plants to the correct distance, but I knew I did not have the space for more rows, and I should have removed even more turf.  As it is now, I still have 3 extra rows of onions. 

    I also had a look at the carrots.  The leaves have started to grow back, after being eaten by slugs, so I'm hoping they are on the mend.  I dug up one carrot, but I think I killed it, so I'll wait a bit longer before I attempt to thin out these plants.

    Friday 13 May 2011

    Slugs?

    Yesterday I put my washing on the line, and my strawberry plant has some big green straweberries on it, hurray! As a first try of growing them, I was really proud of myself. Then, when I went back to bring my washing inside, my strawberry plants (which are in a hanging basket) were all flat. :( I think either a cat, or one of the humungous pigeons we have here, must have decided to sit on it. I propped it back up as best I could, and this morning it's not looking too bad, so hopefully it's going ok.

    My onions are doing really well, and must be nearing 10cm tall now! My two rows of carrots, otoh, have been demolished. There were about 3cm, and have now been eaten (?) back to practically nothing.I think  it's slugs, but the slugs have avoided the onions which are planted in alternate rows to the carrots. I still have no idea when to start thinning out the onions and carrots though. Think I may try and do some thinning tomorrow.

    My tomato plants are coming along nicely too. I have 2 growbags either side of a trellace arch, and only one had sprouted, but now the other side (which is slightly in the shade) has started growing too, so overall I'm pleased.

    Tuesday 10 May 2011

    Weekly Weigh-in

    Current weight: 66kg
    Goal weight: 10st
    Weight lost this week: 2kg
    Total weight loss:12kg

    smiley - biggrin I'm my new Low! smiley - biggrin

    Admitted I felt really, *really* sick yesterday, so I didn't eat anything until the evening, which probably helped. Not recommended for a long-term diet, though. smiley - laugh

    I was nauseous, dizzy, then in the afternoon I had back ache and headache. I hadn't felt this ill since... well, it would've been another virgin birth, but these things still cross your mind. Fortunately, I had a BFN this morning (on the second test - the first was a dud, which didn't help things). I know it could be AF returning (since, as a teenager, I had all these symptoms accompanying it), but even today she hasn't made an apperance yet. smiley - erm Otherwise, just a random bug, that has hopefully passed.

    But I'm another step closer to my target (only 2kg away!), and whilst my BMI would be considered 'healthy', I am now thinking of maybe setting myself another target of 60kg, so I can be comfortably healthy, itms.

    Saturday 7 May 2011

    My Laid Back Guide to Weaning

    My disclaimer: I am just me.  I do not claim to be an expert, I am not a nursery worker or childminder.  I do not have a million children for whom I have perfected this 'technique'.  And, I am certainly not a perfect parent, though I can dream...

    This is going to be fairly short, because I did Baby Led Weaning.  As it sounds, it is weaning that is led by the baby.  Some BLW purists will argues that you should never, ever, spoon feed your LO.  I, however, disagree and think that it is possible to use a spoon when BLW - you just need to be more aware of your LO's reactions, so that you are not just shoving food into their mouth, so that they are still 'leading'.  I spoon feed all food that is meant to be eaten with a spoon (so soup, cereal, yoghurt, etc).  So, put down that blender, or that fork, ready to mash and follow me!

    1. Wait until your child is ready.  That is usually from 6 months upwards.  The main thing is that your baby can sit upright, unaided, and looks ready for food.  (I won't give a list of the signs for readiness, but let's just say that just because a baby enjoys playing with your car keys, doesn't mean it is ready to drive!)
    2. Remind yourself what foods to avoid. Obviously, if there is a family history of allergies, take extra care, but the main thing to remember is once you've reached 6months old your LO can have everything except honey, choking hazards (eg peanuts), and can have cow's milk in food/cereals (but should use breastmilk or formula to drink).
    3. Don't prepare anything special.  Seriously, life is too short!  Just give some food off of your plate, or whatever you are eating.  Encourage chewing, but if they spit the food back out, don't worry about it.
    4. Allow mess.  Your LO hasn't seen these foods before, let alone tasted them, so let them have a little play.  They may put the food straight in their mouths, or they may squish it in their fingers first.  And if they throw things around, they're just learning about gravity. LoL.  Yes, they will use their hands mainly, and may flick food with a spoon before they co-ordinate to their own mouths, but hey. 
    5. Don't worry.  If you are the type of person to worry excessively, or not know the difference between gagging (natural) and choking (dangerous), try and find a family first aid course.  They are really useful in general, but especially so if you are concerned about giving lumps/real food (rather than the yucky puree/mush/vomitty stuff). 
    I think that's about it, to be honest.  It is important to remember that for a baby's first year, most of their nutrition comes milk, so don't worry yourself if you think they are not eating enough, especially if you are comparing your LO to babies that have been forcefed from 4month.  Soon enough, you'll probably find that your LO is eating real food, all by themselves, and probably a wider variety of tastes too.

    Good luck and have fun.

    Dear Diary,

    Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm feeling a bit rubbish.  I never enjoy birthdays.  Not because I'm afraid or hate getting older.  In fact, I think of myself more as a caterpillar that is hoping beyond hope that maybe this year I'll be that butterfly.  And I'm only going to be 29 tomorrow.  A few people have said, in jest, "getting nearer 30!", but 30 doesn't seem old to me, and I don't think there is anything wrong with being older anyway.  I've never had any looks to go or a body to lose,  so to speak, I just seem to be a person that is just sad around birthday time. 

    The children are playing up too.  The house is a mess.  The car has broken down, yet again.  None of these are new things; I'm just noticing/getting upset and frustrated by them more, because I'm in a bit of a slump atm.  And the stats for this blog, which was just a mild sense of excitement, have tailed off too.  So I'm guessing whichever site it was that had a link to here, has now got some other person's blog on it's front page, and that this one is to go back to its bleak existence alone.

    On the good side, though, it has rained today, so hopefully my plants will have had a good watering.  I've forgotten to water them the past 2 days, so they were probably really thirsty.  At the moment, I'm just waiting for them to grow some more, although I do know that soon enough I will need to thin out the carrots and onions.  Whilst I know I need to do that, before they grow too big, I have no idea when I need to do it.  My fear is that I'll do it too soon, and end up damaging or killing the seedlings as I try to take them out of the ground, to move them.  Not that I know where I'm going to move them either.  I do have some more ground that I could use, but I haven't removed the turf yet.  And I need to go over the area with the hoe again, as weeds are starting to appear again.  Unfortunately, the children seem to be conspiring against me, and are not allowing me any time to do anything that needs to be done, let alone time to do gardening.

    We're on holiday soon, and I can't wait.  Not as soon as I'd like, but at least it's something to look forward to.  The past few days has all been taken up with the AV referendum and surprise, surprise it hasn't passed, and all hope of anyone even half decent ever getting into government has gone down the pan.  Good thing my vote makes a difference... oh, wait. :-(

    Hope you feel better than I do, atm.
    Yours,
    LBP

    Book Review: Brilliant CBT by Dr Briers

    Book Review: Brilliant CBT by Dr Briers

    This is a really interesting book for people who are interested in what CBT is and how it works, as well as people who want to use CBT to change areas of their won lives (and it turns out, you can use CBT in most areas!).  This book was recommended to me, by somebody who is using it's techniques and finds it very useful.  I've only read the book (I haven't done any of the exercises it suggests) but I can see the purpose and theory behind them and how they can be useful to overcome the stresses in your own lives.  So, whilst I'm not giving this a recommendation based on experience, from a theoretical point of view (from someone who has no psychological training) I can see its merits.

    If I ever find the time to re-read this book, with the aim of doing the exercises too, then I hope to write a fuller review.

    Book Review: Dear Fatty, by Dawn French

    Book Review: Dear Fatty, by Dawn French

    This is Dawn French's autobiography, and not being a person who usually enjoys this type of book, I was pleasantly surprised.  Almost instantly, I was hooked to reading the end of each letter; and because it was written in letter-format, it was easy to finish each story when real-life interrupted the book!

    It was interesting to get an insight into the comedienne's life, especially about the sad death of her father and how that affected her family.  As you'd expect, though, the book is filled with laugh-out-loud moments too.

    Yes, I'd recommend it.

    Tuesday 3 May 2011

    Weekly Weigh-in

    Current weight: 68kg
    Goal weight: 10st
    Weight lost this week: 0.5kg
    Total weight loss:10kg

    Still pottering along. smiley - smiley

    Thursday 28 April 2011

    How the Hell can I call myself a Christian?

    I don't go to church, and I barely even pray anymore.  I have no idea if anybody (who doesn't know me) would recognise me as a Christian, even though I wear a Crucifix - because it is often just a fashion statement these days.  My biggest fear is that when I do die, I will be one of the people who Jesus was talking about in Matthew 7:21-23.

    21 “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.
    22 Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’
    23 Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!’

    But I do call myself a Christian.  Of course it all comes down to belief (specifically faith verses works, which is a huge debate in itself), but I do believe that Jesus is Lord.  Whether I am in a close relationship with God or not, doesn't alter the fact that God exists and Jesus is His Son who died for me. 

    I've been on various Christian messageboards and forums (incidentally, I do think you can 'do' church online, because 'church' is the collection of believers and not some cold, run down building that you feel obliged to frequent on a Sunday), and have debated and been involved in various apologetics.  I do still find apologetics interesting, but don't have much time to spend on it these days.  What confuses me the most (and I truly do not understand) is people who claim that they were bible-believing Christians.  Perhaps they even spoke in tongues or displayed other 'signs of the Spirit'.  However, they came to their senses and now believe that there is no God, they were brainwashed, and no longer accept any of it.  If I only use my intellect (I've a Masters from Oxford - often I'm the more 'intelligient' one anyway) I would see as they do, and realise the 'truth'.  I honestly do not know how this can happen, if people did genuinely have a relationship with God.  As I said before, even if I say a million times that God doesn't exist, that doesn't stop Him from existing, nor me from knowing that He is there!

    So, that is why I call myself a Christian.  I may not be a very good one, but I call myself one, nonetheless.

    Laughing at this blog.

    I've just looked at the stats for this blog.  As it's fairly anonymous (I've only told 2 RL people about it), I haven't linked to it from FB or any of the forums I'm on.  It is only me and my thoughts about the world, and a couple of rants, with my attempt at dieting thrown in.  I'm sure for most people it is as dull as ditchwater.  It is clearly not popular.  I don't have any 'followers' and I don't think there has been a single comment left about one of my posts. (That being said, if you did want to comment, or follow this blog, please do.)

    So why am I laughing?  Because there has been a whopping 39 direct views of one of my posts.  Is it a funny anecdote?  Maybe a story about the birth of my children, or my thoughts on something even vaguely interesting?  Nope.  It is just a record, for myself, of the books that DD1 has taken out of the library this week.  Fascinating! (with much more than a hint of sarcasm).

    The next highest viewed post is about the Swiss holiday, which I still laugh about even now, with a lowly 14 views.  So yes, 39 (at the latest count) truly is 'whopping'.

    Tuesday 26 April 2011

    Weekly Weigh-in

    Current weight: 68.5kg
    Goal weight: 10st
    Weight lost this week: -0.5kg
    Total weight loss:9.5kg

    I have put on half a kilo this week, which isn't too bad, as it could be normal fluctuation. smiley - smiley

    Monday 25 April 2011

    Weight Loss

    To add to last week's post, I've actually another 5kg (~11lbs) to lose  until I hit my target of 10stone so it's a fair chunk, and I'm losing it slowly, but hopefully steadily and healthily. What is good, though, is when I think back to when I started (pre-DD2), I was 87kg, so I've lost nearly 20kgs! (~3stone) Because I've been losing weight over a fair while, and had a pg in between, I had no idea it was that much. I'm really chuffed with myself. smiley - biggrin

    Because of the hot weather, I went to wear a skirt yesterday, but it on (it's a lovely loose white skirt) and you actually could have fitted 2 of me in there!  So I'm reduced to wearing just a handful of summer clothes.  I really must go shopping to reward myself!

    I'm dreading tomorrow's weigh-in, though.  We've had a bit of a weekend of it, with the in-laws here, and even though they have left, we've just had a chinese takeaway, so I wouldn't be surprised if I have put loads of weight back on.

    Library Books

    Again, I'm just using the library's online list, so I don't have authors etc, though we have had a fair few before.
    • Little Red Riding Hood
    • Fillet and the mob
    • Little red hen
    • Where's Wally? (Admittedly I got this for me, but DD1 has been enjoying it too.)
    • Our Jungle
    • Mr Frost
    • Ships
    • Trucks
    • Baby's Very First Touchy-Feely getting dressed book (for DD2)

    Thursday 21 April 2011

    Seeds have sprouted!

    Hurray! My carrots and onions that I planted a couple of weeks ago have started shooting. I did have to do a google search to check though, as I wasn't sure if it was grass/weeds :oops: but this is my first attempt at gardening so I'm pleased. Also, one of my tomato seeds has appeared. The strawberry plant is doing well, but all I've had to do with that so far is water it. DD1 is interested too, and helps me do the watering everyday (I bought a pink watering can for her) and every day she picks flowers from the garden for me (daisies and dandelions :) ).

    Tuesday 19 April 2011

    Weekly Weigh-in

    Current weight: 68kg
    Goal weight: 10st
    Weight lost this week: 2kg
    Total weight loss:10kg

    Wahoo! I'm my new lowest weight!smiley - biggrin

    And i've just found out my BMI is 25.6!  Oh, so close to being healthy!!!

    Monday 18 April 2011

    Quote about the Purpose of Noses

    "A nose keeps bogeys warm and cosy."
    by DD1 (3.5yo), after some pondering. LoL

    Sunday 17 April 2011

    Library Books

    Just a quick update, as I've been really busy recently:  (I don't have all the authors/illustrators because I'm just using the online library system, which appears to only list titles.)
    • Terrormazia*
    • Pants, by Sharratt and 
    • You Choose, by Sharratt and Goodhart
    • Bertie and the Big Balloon
    • The Island of Horror*
    • Ten Little Babies,
    • Atchoo! by Kelly and McQuillan
    • Weather, by Clarke
    • Noisy Engines!
    *Admittedly, theswe two puzzle books, were for me, rather than DD1!

    Saturday 9 April 2011

    Dear Diary,

    Lots have been going on that I really need to update with you.  On Mother's Day, we had the worst takeaway [customer service] in the world, on Monday we went to the library as usual, but I haven't noted which books we got out, I put on weight, DD1 made an HE friend, the weather has been gorgeous and I've had a busy Saturday in the garden today!

    So, on Mother's Day, for a change we thought we'd try the only Italian takeaway (excluding the likes of Pizza Hut etc) in our town.  We looked at the menu, and though it seemed pricey (more than double what we would normally pay for a takeaway, DH and I decided it would be a nice change.  We ordered online, and only after we had paid, did it say "allow 90mins for delivery"!  We were hoping to feed DD1 (and 2) some of ours for dinner, but that wait seemed ridiculous, so she had beans on toast - which she probably enjoyed more anyway.  Soon, DD1 was in bed, and DD2 was asleep downstairs, but still no food.  After nearly 2 hours from whe we ordered we phoned up to ask where our food was, to be told that ours was next in line (so they hadn't even started it!) and to apologise they'd throw in a bottle of wine.  Did we want white or red?  Red.  DH nor I like white wine, so even though we decided it was too late to open the bottle that night, it would keep.  We had to wait another 45minutes (!!!) before the food arrived.  DH went to the door, took the food, but no bottle of wine.  The delivery driver said he would return with it, which to be fair, he did very promptly, but it was white.  Typical - and just sums up the customer service that they couldn't even get the colour of wine right.  By this point, it was nearly 3 hours after we first ordered, and we were well into the food, so didn't bother saying anything.  At least we now have a bottle of white for if we have visitors.  The food itself was actually lovely, though massive.  If we were ever to order from there again (which we're not going to), we'd order 1 starter and 1 main between us.  At least that way, it would be the right amount of food for a decent price.  I ordered White Bait starter (which was enough for about 4 people) and Duck breast for main.  I was given the option of chips or vegetables, I opted for veg, but ordered a side order of chips anyway.  When it arrived, the duck breast was about 6inches long, and 2 inches thick, though very tasty.  The side order of chips was humungous, and the vegetables had roasted potatoes included so I didn't need the chips anyway.  DH ordered prawns for starter and seafood spaghetti for main; the latter was definitely enough for two.  As I say, the food was very nice, but we're not going to bother ordering from there again.  I would Name and Shame, but then that takes away one part of my anonymity, if you know where I'm located.

    Current weight: 71kg
    Goal weight: 10st
    Weight lost this week: -2kg (ie put on 2kg)
    Total weight loss: 7kg

    I put on 2kg this week.  Probably because of the takeaways, and visit to my grandparents, but I'm hoping it is just a normal fluctuation and I haven't put myself back that much.   Today I saw somebody who hadn't seen me in a few weeks, and with the warmer weather, I'm wearing thinner/lighter/tighter clothes.  Anyway, she commented about how much weight I've lost, around my waist and around my face, so I hope that means I haven't done too much damage to my goals.

    On Monday we went to the library as usual.  I got out some books for DD1 and one for me.  (I'll update this post, when I've got them to hand.)  Then, on Tuesday, we went to a different library for Storytime and also to meet up with a fellow HEer, and her children.   She has two girls, the elder one is 5 and the younger is 1.  The elder daughter, apparently, went to preschool and didn't hate it, but didn't enjoy it that much either.  So, off she went to school like most other children, but changed overnight and hated it.  So, she was taken out of school and is now being HEed.  Anyway, DD1 and her got on like a house on fire, so I'm hoping they will become good friends, as we start to develop more friendships in the HE world. :-D

    And today I have done much in the garden.  The weather is still lovely, so I wanted to make the most of it.  I cut the grass, and filled up one compost bin, and started filling the second one.  I repotted my house plant (a rubber plant, that I've had since university), I sowed the tomato seeds in the grow bags, and I sowed rows of carrots and onions in the ground.  I've never attempted to grow anything from seed before, but hopefully that if nothing has grown in a month's time, I will still be able to buy some baby-plants from the gardening shop to replace the dead-seeds and nobody will be any the wiser. Ssssssh!

    So that's what I've been up to lately.  I am planning on writing a post entitled "How the Hell can I call myself a Christian?" but it's another thing that I haven't got around to.  Tomorrow the weather is still meant to be high so we're planning to go to the beach for the day with the children.  Studland beach in Dorset is a sandy, accessible naturist beach.  But it is a fair few hours drive away, so it does depend on how much sleep we get tonight and how early we wake tomorrow.  Otherwise, we'll still be at home, and hopefully will be as productive as we have been today.

    Speak again soon,
    LBP

    Sunday 3 April 2011

    Mother's Day!

    Today is Mother's Day, in the UK.  It is usually the last Sunday in March; I don't know why it has changed to April this year, unless it is somehow also linked to Easter?  Mr. Internet probably knows somewhere. 

    Today I had a lay-in, and DH took DD1 and DD2 downstairs nice and early, so I could sleep.  Then, just before 10am, DD1 ran in shouting "Happy Mother's Day" and DH brought me a large cooked breakfast in bed, and a glass of orange juice and I had a card from my two DDs with a lovely picture of the moon drawn by DD1.  (Why there's a picture of the moon in my card, I don't know, but shhh, don't tell her that.)

    And because I want to grow my own, I used today as an excuse for DH to buy me lots of gardening stuff.  So off we went and bought a watering can, compost, plant feed, name tags, tomato grow bags, strawberry plant in a hanging basket, a bucket and a water power thingy for the patio (which is really a new toy for DH and cost more than all my stuff put together).  Typically, as we were loading the car up it started to rain. 

    Since coming back home the rain has come and gone. I have managed to cut back the holly bush (I wanted to remove it totally, but DH thinks it looks good.  It's just a bit too prickally for my liking), hang up the strawberry basket, and tidy the garden by putting the leafy things from next-door's palm-type tree into the compost.  Not much, as I was hoping to sow some seeds too today, and cut the grass, but the weather has changed.

    As it is Mum's day today, yesterday we went to visit my grandparents.  My dad came down to visit them, with his wife and my sister, and we went across for just the day as we don't live too far away.  Overall we had a nice time.  Ate far too much (I may have mentioned this before, but my grandmother is a feeder), and brought loads home too, which we have been eating today.  My family are not known for their tact, though, and the first thing that my grandad, my dad and my grandmother (all separately) said to me was how blothcy, red and spotty my face looks.  Thanks(!)  Yesterday morning I got up early-ish, had a shower.  Chose clothes to help show slim I'm looking now.  Used mousse in my hair to keep the curls, as nobody knew I had had my hair cut, let alone seen it.  I even applied some make up, which I very rarely do, so that I could look my best.  And they all comment on the state of my acne. :-(  After my mum's comments a few weeks ago, I've even been using specific cleanser and a night lotion to help.  Obviously they're not working are they.  DH is still convinced that my face isn't that bad, but it made me feel so rubbish.  I ended up asking directly about my weightloss and my new hairstyle.  My grandad asked if my hair had grown - nope, I've only had 6-8inches cut off a fortnight ago.  My Nan and my sister both said they liked my hair, though. 

    Anyway, before I upset myself again I should stop there.  That was yesterday, and today is Mother's day.  I wonder if I could even fit a bath in later on? :-)

    Oh, and my nan bought me a dress and a swimming costume in a size 14, because the dresses she bought for me before didn't fit.  The swimming cossie fits lovely - I'll look forward to wearing that on holiday in the summer - and DH said I look really slim in it.  And the dress, looks and fits really good, but really it is slightly to big, as I can easily pinch in a good inch from either side!